Time To Move On

Over the last year, I have come to the realization that a particular friendship has gone by the wayside.  I tried to deny it, but it's true.  I tried to hang on to it, but I got blown off.  I realized, I was being treated as an acquaintance, and not a friend.

I don't know why exactly it happened.  Perhaps, the whole out of sight, out of mind thing, but then I got to thinking, that's not an excuse because all of my close friends live far off, and they all make the effort that a friendship takes.

It hurts, and I think it's because I took/take it personally, like, that person doesn't like me any more.  But really, our views are different, our values are different, and we really don't have anything in common anymore.  But still.  They didn't make an effort! It was so one-sided.  I slowly gave up, and today, I'm moving on.  I've complained, and now I'll move on.

Scheduling Life

So, I have discovered in the last week or two that scheduling life does not work like it does say, your work day.  I got really frustrated at myself for not having tasks done at the end of the day, so I figured it was because I was mismanaging my time.  The truth is, life "got in the way."  Kids are demanding of your time and attention, and have no regard to your "schedule."  So, I would be exhausted at the end of the day, busy, busy, busy, but nothing was done...what had I done all day?  Oh yeah, took care of the kids, cleaned up after them, fed them, changed diapers/help use the potty, get them down for a nap, kiss boo boos, dole out morning and afternoon snacks, make dinner, feed kids again, clean up kids, get ready for bed, read bedtime stories, sing a bedtime song, tell Carter 3 times good night before you close the door, and then collapse on the couch to have a minute to yourself.  And of course, that's just the basics...there's always the unexpected that creeps in there daily.

What I did learn though is, you can have a schedule to a point.  Like, I will sweep and mop this morning, and then start lunch/dinner at this time, and fold clothes while watching evening TV.  So, really, I guess that's not a schedule, but more of a to-do list. 

Making a schedule/to-do list has made me more aware of how my time is spent, and that I need to make the time to do the things that I need to and want to.

So, next on my list is to clean the kitchen...so ta ta for now.